A dream

Margot and I are in a house at the top of the hill, the one surrounded by sharp black gates, and on the corner. While we are in the washroom getting ready for a party, I notice a device on the upper wall by the heater, a recorder of sorts. I watch Margot staring at herself endlessly, doing nothing different than that. Hedley is waiting to drive us to the party, but it’s like we can never be ready enough... We’re now at the party. Her and I are walking with a group of people. It’s dark and we’re passing many different trees that should not live together like this. Nothing is familiar. I don’t know where we are. A man puts his arm around my waste, and I think it is weird... Now I’m in a pet store with Margot and the man. A red button-vested employee is carrying a little black rabbit. I ask her if I can hold it. She immediately extends the rabbit for me to take. I hold it for a long time, petting it, feeling like I can’t pet it enough... I can’t find Margot or the man. I am searching the store frantically. Rabbit is pressed up against my chest. I’m petting it and petting it even as I run. I’m scared. We’re supposed to be at the party. I suspect plans have changed again. Like that, I see her walk through the automatic doors. She is wearing something different from before. It’s a blue dress over jeans.... No one will take the rabbit. I keep trying to give it back. Both employees and customers are telling me that they can’t take rabbit because there are to many different cages and they forget which one he belongs to. Finally I set rabbit onto the linoleum floor, and it runs to the stores back wall. I’m worried. I run after rabbit. Rabbit went down a hole, and ran through a tunnel under the wall. There are smaller holes punched into the floor and I can see him passing through. I keep trying to grab rabbit, but my hand is too big. I give up on rabbit. I leave the pet store.... I’m searching for Margot’s car, but I can’t find it. I open a car door. The man is inside. He doesn’t notice me. He drives away seconds later with his car door still open. Finally I see the back of her car. I get in. I say to her “plans have changed haven’t they?” Her eyes glow dangerously. “We’re going to the cham dance now.” I say, “Fuck.” She laughs, telling me she knew that I would be mad. I feel annoyed that she doesn’t feel the same way.... We see the highway from the parking spot. There is a deep ditch on either side of the highway. We are supposed to go around to get on our way, but instead she pushes her foot to the pedal accelerating fast in an attempt to jump the ditch. We are high in the air. It feels real, this horror is actually happening. My body is really dropping, the same sensation as in a broken elevator. Turning my head to her I say, “I love you.” She says back, “I know”, or “I love you too,” I’m not sure which.... She is at ease, like nothing bad is happening. We land and the car crunches on all of its sides and we are still okay. Our faces are practically touching and what we are doing is staring at each other as we become more entrapped on each roll. Margot and I stop rolling, but continue to slide. The car is upside down. We know that the world is moving as usual. I finally see her face change. She says, “I don’t understand why this isn’t ending, when is it going to stop? I’m scared now. I think I’m really hurt too.”